Calm Before the Storm

Right now it is 1:00 am. And I cannot sleep whatsoever. So I am currently watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. What I should be doing is sleeping or working on my book. 

I thought that writing a book would be way easy, but it is not. I have a plot line just can't figure out the stuff in between. Ugh, it's so hard. I have a new found respect for published authors. Writing books really takes time and imagination. I have no imagination. Hahaha, so this is going to be extremely difficult. 

Speaking of extremely difficult, one of my guy friends is being really difficult. He doesn't like the guy I like. He is jealous of this other guy. Which makes me sad because all my friend does is undermine the guy. And it's not fair. I'm doing everything right! I turned down the guy when he asked my out the first time and now we have an awesome friendship. However, my friend just can't get over it. It's like he is hoping that I will forget the guy and date him. Unfortunately, for him, that isn't going to happen. I have waited a year and a half to date the guy I like and I have two months to go. This is getting ridiculous. Some people would say it is like an Edward/Jacob situation, but it so is not. I wish it were that simple. Maybe I'll just have Ali talk to my friend for me. This is just not cool anymore.

Speaking of not cool, it is very hot in my room. NOT COOL.

Things that are cool are that I am going to Ali's this weekend!!! Whoo hoo! Movie night and cards and food. My type of day. =D If I just keep thinking about Saturday, then I think I can keep a good grip on the happiness I felt last Saturday.

Anyway, that is all for now folks. I am having some serious writers block.

peace.love.happiness. 

I had a Dream Last Night We Flew Out to See Las Vegas

Actually, I did not have a dream that I flew out to see Vegas. There isn't anything in Vegas worth seeing. I'd probably spend an hour in the airport gift shop and then gone home or just plain turned around and went home. Anyway, this post has nothing to do with flying, Vegas or airport gift shops. It's going to be a brief post about the awful, frightening and despicable.....

GIRLS CAMP

(dun dun dun duuunnn)

Yeah, I'm serious so you can stop laughing or whatever. To me, G.C. is like this:

It was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness,

it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair,

we had everything before us, we had nothing before us,

we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going

direct the other way.

-Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities (1859)

In other words, for some it is going to be fun, exciting and worthwhile. For others, such as myself, it is Hell on Earth, or Hell in the middle of Heaven. I love being in the woods! I mean, hello!! I looove Yosemite! I wanna live there all because of the trees and just the being in the woods thing. I hate girls camp. With a deep passion. But anyway, back to the Heaven/Hell analogy. For the rest of us who would rather stay home and watch General Hospital, we have NOTHING before us and it indeed is a season of darkness. 1. we're away from my comfort zone 2. strangers are preparing my food 3. what happens if I accidentally eat a cashew? 4. I'm surrounded by tons of other girls who I do not know nor do I care to know them 5. most of those girls are going to be on their periods. 6. drama (need I say more.) 7. absolutely no privacy 8. too much noise 9. I can't just be quiet for one flipping second without someone asking me whats wrong! 10. too many hyper, happy people.

I have nothing against happy people. I enjoy being happy too. But for the love of everything holy in this world, I do not understand how some can be like that the whole entire time! It's like stepford(sp?) wives, only scarier. Nothing against the leaders, and not my ward leaders..other ward leaders, but for crying out loud, I do not want to be there. Of course I ain't smiling. And being quiet does not mean that something is wrong. It means I really have nothing to say and just don't want to talk. I have nothing against other girls or girls in general. You surround me with them though, I will get annoyed. Sorry I'm human and don't get along with everyone! <--sarcasm. I'm not sorry. I do not do screaming children, what makes you think I put up with screaming girls. ex:

Girl: Oh my cheese! A bug!

Me: Squish it.

Girl: *Screams* Ahh!! It's coming closer!

Me: *yells over screaming girl* Move out of my way.

Girl: *still screaming* It's gonna eat me! (or) Help me!

Me: *shoves screaming girl aside* Hey! Look. *squishes bug*

Girl: *stoped screaming* oh! *proceeds to laugh hysterically*

Me: Cheese and rice! *walks away mumbling*

Has it happened before? Yes. I'm not kidding. Maybe not in the exact words, but it has happened. Not all girls are like that, but there are some. Then you also put me with some people I don't get along with. I don't start crap, but I can finish it. Now, you put me with my sister, chances are that we will not get along very well. However, some stupid girl messes with my sister, and that's it. She is going down. No one messes with my sister and gets away with it. =D

Anyway, I can really rant on and on about this, but I won't.

This will be my last post for a while. If I survive G.C. I will write about. But if something goes wrong, do not expect me to write about it.

On a happier note, this Saturday should be fun! Dance, dance! =D

Our Dreams Assured and We All Will Sleep Well

(Dashboard Confessional-Stolen)

I am pretty sure that today has one of the best Fridays of my LIFE!! Let us recap:

• Very funny attempt at tennis
• Interesting walk home
• Camp shirt fixing
• Movie watching
• Pink Lemonade
• Enchiladas
• CoB t-shirt
• Chinese Food
• Card making

So much happened today and I am too tired to write about it all! I'll leave that for tomorrow! Sleep Well!!

=)

Is That A Fish?!?

I'm pretty sure that it was a fish. It definitely looked like one, even if Diana doesn't believe me. Anyway, I finally did it!!!

You: What exactly did you do?

Me: Well, I'll tell you. I died the top part of my hair black!!

You: O.O

Me: Stop being so skeptical. It's all good.

No, really it is. Well, I like it anyway. It looks good...when straight. I haven't tried anything else with it yet. I'm not going Emo or Goth. I just kinda always wanted to try it. SO I did. And I like it. My face looks thinner. I look slightly older and I'm happy. I'm not going over to the "Dark Side". I'm just expressing myself through my hair. AGAIN THIS DOES NOT MEAN I AM GOING OVER TO THE DARK SIDE. It just means that my hair now makes me happy. There is no more blonde either!! Not that I have anything against blondes, I am just sick of having it in my hair. NO matter what color I use, it always goes back to blonde. Not this time. Its all gone. And it looks really good. Anyway, enough about that. On to more important subjects...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!

Yes, it's my mommy's birthday. She is once again 29. Hahaha. Although, my mom doesn't want to celebrate it. WHATEVER! She is still getting a card.

Today also happens to be my cousin's graduation! But more about all this later!

How I Could Kill A Man (Charlotte Sometimes)

I like that song. It's pretty funny. Anyway, there is only one word that can sum up this last month or two or whatever. I forgot the last time I wrote......oh! *ahem* back to the ONE word:

HEADACHE

I am totally serious. I have had an on-going headache. And it sucks. Worst of all I am on Summer Vacation and I STILL have a headache. Maybe I should consult a doctor? I'm thinking maybe so.

Anyway, forgetting the headache (easier said/typed than done), I am desperate to escape from here. Like super desperate. At least I don't have school on Monday, but it would be an awesome outlet. I can just see Sammy and I walking around the Quad area talking about how sucky or great our weekends were. What our crushes said when they called/texted/messaged over myspace or facebook, then laughing about how dumb we're being. Unfortunately I no longer have that comfort. Instead I'm now being forced to be at home dealing with annoying as "heck" sisters and a "bipolar" father. IM SUPER EXCITED! <--sarcasm. I need something to preoccupy my mornings until my mother gets home. Then I can sit in my room and have no one bother me. I just wish I had a decent book to read, but I have read everything in my closet a gazillion times. I know every plot and there is hardley any surprise left in those books. I need to go book shopping. Not that it would matter much anyway, they would still find someway to drag me away from the familiar safety of wonderfully written pages and loveable characters. What I wouldn't give to live in one of those books! Their lives would be amazing to live, they worlds amazing to live in. Being in the places I dream about, but no. Yosemite is the closest thing I can get to a retreat. And I hope that I can talk my grandparents into taking me back up there for longer that a few days. I wouldn't have work to worry about and I could really relax. No sisters. No parents. No cell phone reception. No nothing. Just me and some trees. Maybe a sketch book and my camera. No worries...just perfect. I can only dream. I don't know. I really really want to go now.

Until then...I dunno what I'm going to do. Well actually, right now I'm going to go get something to drink cause I am super thirsty.

I really need to go to Target before Tuesday so I can get my hair dye. Thats right everyone!! I am dying my hair once more. Just the top part cause I am so sick and tired of the blonde/orange crap in my hair. Seriously, so I'm dying the top part a nice shade of black. Black doesnt fade fast and it would look really nice with my dark brown hair. Well, uh, hopefully.